foul mood

well today wasn't so good.  Well it was until I got online tonight and checked my bank account.  I'm broke.  and getting broker.  Payments that I thought had been processed weeks ago are just now popping up and I'm now in the red.  This sucks.  I had hopes for a grand birthday, and now I'm so beyond broke I can't really enjoy it.  Thankfully my mom and her fiance told me they'd buy my ticket to disneyland as a birthday gift... but unless by some miracle my paycheck gets deposited on saturday.... I have no money to play with for my birthday.  hopefully I'll get a birthday card that has some money in it... otherwise if I spend any money at Disneyland I'll have to hope it wont go through until monday when my paycheck goes in.

It's raining.  matches my mood.  Its an unfriendly storm that keeps rageing and then subsiding.... it's like it's reading my emotions.  I'm excited for the weekend... but also somehow very depressed.  I want to go and have fun, but I have no means to.... horrid way to have a birthday.  I've got just enough room on one credit card to pay for the kitten, and then that's it.  I wont be able to afford anything until payday.

with a big sigh... i say this sucks.